7/10/24

 Hello Fam <3

It has been about 6 weeks since our last update. So far Seung has received his first dose of his specialized liver chemo (FUDR for those who are interested) and has had no real side effects that we know of.  Unfortunately, Seung had a CT scan the day after receiving his first dose and had a pretty bad reaction to the contrast so we don't know for sure. 

Seung is receiving systemic chemo round #20/ round #1 @ UCSF and he is/was pretty nervous coming into it today. He's been off of systemic chemo for the last 12 weeks... and the nerves with starting it back up again (with all of the side effects and the general crummy feeling overall) have been overwhelming. In the most recent scans, we saw that this cancer has grown, which was to be expected... but still a little defeating. We are hopeful that this new liver directed therapy does its job in lessening the "disease burden" to his liver and the systemic chemo wipes out the rest of the cancer in his primary site and lungs...

It's crazy to think that Seung has already had a whole year of chemo. He has a full head of hair. He's slowly but surely putting back the weight he lost while prepping/aftermath of surgery. His silliness is coming back and mentally he's working through all the emotions that surgery brought about. He's still the same man I married 12 years ago, maybe a tad bit more grumpy :) but the same nevertheless. 

We are so thankful that you guys have continued on this journey with us this last year. Like with anything, a year is a long time to be emotionally invested in something that can be an emotional rollercoaster... so thank you for continuing to pray for our little family, especially for Seung.

-E

A couple of prayer requests:

- Seung: has found himself struggling mentally. He had a rough couple of weeks after surgery where everything felt meaningless... although he doesn't vocalize his worries, it takes a toll on his mind and soul. Please pray that he will find comfort in knowing that his worth doesn't rely on his abilities and that even in this season of life, that God is still being glorified.

- Esther: I find myself having emotional whiplash. The highs are so high and the lows are the absolute pits. Would you pray that I would find stability, not in the circumstances of Seung's cancer journey, but in our Heavenly Father who was, is and will continually be.

- Bigs: The Bigs sometimes forget that Seung has had surgery and are starting to rough-house with him a little bit. Their spirits are still high and they are ever so joyful. It is shocking how much energy they have. Please pray that they will continue to grow to be resilient young men, who find comfort in knowing that God is in control.

- Ollie: Mr. Ollie-pants is a handful. He is becoming incredibly opinionated and a bit more clingy to Mommy. He wants Seung to hold and carry him around and is having a hard time understanding why Daddy can't play with him. We pray that even when he doesn't understand, or when we don't display our love to him perfectly, that he'll will feel God's perfect love.

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