Love Letter to CCPC

10/3/2023

Hello and Good Morning Fam! 

Since our last update, Seung has received his 8th round of treatment and another set of scans. A praise report is that his CEA numbers are trending down even still (we're at 612 now!) and his scans show that treatment is working.  Some of the mets in his lungs have disappeared, his lymph nodes look clean and we are now seeing some healthy tissue in his liver. Seung is gaining weight and continues to have a healthy appetite. All of these positive changes are in line with what we wanted to see, and yet we find ourselves hesitant to feel joy. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop... for the chemo to stop working or for Seung to suddenly not feel well. But we are wrestling with our anxiety and trying to pursue gratitude.  We are so thankful for all of you and your prayers.  God is truly moving and answering the prayers that are being lifted up on our behalf. All of you hold a very special place in our hearts and we are overwhelmed by the sheer volume of love we are receiving. And with that, I would like to express our heartfelt gratitude and love to our church fam.


Dearest CCPC fam,

Words cannot and would not do justice to the gratitude and love we have for you all.  As Seung shared in his in-person update yesterday, you guys have gone out of your way to make sure that we are taken care of and loved. We started back in March and we had JUST started getting to know you all when Seung received his diagnosis in May. 2 months... in the short 2 months that you knew us, you rallied behind us and around us. We have/had nothing to offer you all, but you made us feel accepted and as a vital part of the body. It has now been 7 months and the support has not lessened. All of our friends and family members are in such awe whenever we share about you all.  The level of support and care that we are receiving says volumes about the type of church you are striving to be and a testament to the work of the pastors and elders at CCPC.  Thank you for not only loving our family of 5, but also being a reflection of what it means to love the Lord and to love the body. <3 So, from the very bottom of our hearts, thank you so so much...


A couple of prayer requests that we have... Seung and I (but especially me) are struggling to feel relieved/joy/hope. Maybe it has to do with how we found out about Seung's condition or the fact that Seung's scans and numbers look drastically different from before and yet he is still not a candidate for surgery. It feels almost foolish to rejoice when we have (what seems like) such a long way to go.  But we don't want to forget to give thanks because we couldn't have imagined that we'd be here.  

1. Please continue to pray for Seung and his body.  We had to postpone 2 rounds of treatment already due to his low blood count.  He is still able to receive chemo but has had to push it a week later than when he would usually receive treatment. 

2. Please pray for me as I have had some more bad days. Feeling frustrated and at times just exhausted.  There is a lot of discontentment/sadness and feelings of unfairness towards God. Please pray that I would continue to trust in the Lord when His ways don't seem to make sense and to rest in His grace on a daily basis.

3. Please continue to pray for the kids. For them to know that even in the moments where we love them imperfectly, they have a heavenly Father who loves them perfectly.

Thank you again for joining us in prayer and we send you all of our love. 

-E

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