Fourth Round Update

 Hello, this is Seung.  Thank you for reading our blog.  It shows us that you value us and think that we are important enough to spend your time for and with us. 

My fourth round chemo was on July 17.  What happened?

  • I gained 1 pound. 
  • I didn't sleep at all during chemo. My body was tired, but I was on my phone.
  • Esther and I met my oncologist during the chemo session. She shared that my CEA numbers are trending nicely downward (down from 15000s to 5000s).
  • I definitely had more energy compared to previous three sessions. 
  • Yet, I overexerted myself to feel better (wanting to SEE that I was getting better sooner) and didn't feel well for few more days.
  • I had a fever for few days (which scared and worried Esther a lot), but thankfully no fever now.
  • I am still losing my hair.  But I have accepted the fact that I will lose hair.  


Some gratitudes include:

  • My brothers, including my brother-in-law
  • A surprise visit from family
  • Timely visits from friends 
  • Timely letters with timely words of encouragement
  • Timely sermon for my family
  • Bagel and cream cheese for breakfast
  • My presbytery brothers and their churches praying for me and my family

Prayer Request 

  1. I got my CT scan done on Wednesday (July 26). The good news is that chemo is working and all tumors shrunk (we were expecting more but are still thankful for God's provisions)
  2. Please pray for me that I will maintain the mindset that I need God more than a miracle.  
  3. C starts school soon (not at home, but with other kids).  Please pray that he will adjust well and will be surrounded by GREAT teachers and he will make good friends.
  4. Strength for Esther - Esther is having some low days.  Please pray for her to rely on God's strength and not her own.

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