Learning to Receive Well

Hello, this is Seung. This is going to be a little different kind of update. I'll be sharing few reflections that I had. 


It has been a season where I am learning to receive.

  • First and foremost, I am learning to receive God's grace. After my prognosis, I knew that I needed a miracle. However, I need God more. And he has been gracious to me. Every Sunday, I am reminded that the gospel that I have been preaching for so long is for me! Truly, God is MY strength and MY song. He has become salvation (Psalm 118:14)
  • Secondly, I am learning to receive other people's love. Since the news about my condition went out, prayers and support (in the form of cards and letters) flooded my family. As a pastor, I am usually on the giving side. I am used to visiting the sick to encourage and pray. I am used to writing heart-felt texts to show support. But now, I am that person who needs prayer and encouragement. So, I am learning to receive when people show love.
  • Thirdly, I am learning to receive the treatment well. Whether I am going to get better or not depends on how my body responds to the treatment. But not knowing how my body will respond to chemo is unnerving. Having heard and seen (and also have the doctor explained to me) the side effects that it can have, I am just hoping that my body receives the treatment well. 


Some gratitudes include (I might add more later on):

  • Celebrated our 11th wedding anniversary!
  • Not losing any hair yet. 
  • I still have appetite. 
  • Our two older children playing with each other well
  • My wife with steady hands to give my injections
  • My mom and my mother-in-law cooking delicious home-made food
  • O's 100th day!
  • Many, many, many people (and churches) praying for me and my family
  • To have the desire to seek God, delight in him, and find peace in him


Prayer Requests:
  1. My family and I will be patient with this treatment process. It only has been a week. There will be many weeks of ups and downs with treatment and recovery. Please pray for strength to endure through it all day by day. 
  2. My two older children and I have not been spend much time together. They know that I am sick. They have been good about playing on their own. But they do need their father. Please pray that I can fulfill my role as their father as much as my body allows. 
  3. The nutritionist told me to eat six small meals throughout the day.  Trying to figure out what to eat and when to eat has been stressful for me (who used to eat to live). My mom and my mother-in-law have been wonderful about making me what I want to eat. But please pray that I will find good and balanced meal to strengthen my body. 

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