My Strength and My Song

Hello, this is Seung.  I hope that you enjoyed Esther's blog post.  If you still haven't read it, I ask you to read it.  I have received six chemo sessions so far.  My last one was on August 14.  What happened since then? My weight barely changed (153.1 to 153).  Maybe I will have to eat more. My CEA (carcinoembryonic antigen) are down to under 3000.  The normal range is 0 to 5.  Mine is at 3000, a long way to go  I really don't like having the pump (chemo that I come home with) for 48 hours.  I'm getting used to it, but can't wait to take it off every time. I had more energy to help around the house. But my hands and tongue were very sensitive to cold.  I tried eating ice cream the day after chemo and it felt like getting poked on the tongue with a knife.  I look very different with much less hair.   My brother went back and my another brother is visiting soon. My seventh chemo session is on August 28. Some gratitude...

8/5/23 I always wrestle with if I am sharing too little or too much each time we post an update.  I wonder if sharing the emotions and the thoughts behind what is happening is helpful or if it distracts from the reality of what is happening inside Seung's body.  And honestly, it's still a very real struggle even now as I write this.   Recently, we received a letter where someone shared that while reading our blog, they felt challenged to see God working in their circumstances.  That while they read our posts, they thought, "wow, Seung and Esther are able to see God's goodness and mercies, even in the midst of their struggles," and then concluded, "why then, can't I."  And I'm not exactly sure why, but it has been heavy on my heart since... Truth be told, there are many days when I'm not able to see God's goodness and mercies and it saddened me to think that we might be portraying ourselves as these people who are walking uprightly and are...